Stagnation

Driving home from work, I get off the highway and nearly ran over a little doggie. I pull over because this is an extremely high traffic area and I don't want the lil' bugger to get hit. Well, it was apparent that he was abused because of how he reacted. By the way he was eating, it was obvious he was hungry. He was a beagle, on the smaller side, didn't look full grown, but maybe, had it been a female. It was def. not a female. He growled at me a few times, and, heh.. instead of barking, he howled at me about 4 times. I found that quite amusing! Anyways, he was just trusting me when something overcame him and he crossed the road, near the onramp in the other direction. Someone ended up stopping, trying to do the same thing- get their paws on him to see who he belonged to, or take him home, whatever. He had a collar on. The other people asked me if he was mine, I said no, and they carried on their efforts on the other side of the road. They were pushing him too fast, but they must have had time, and something for him to eat, apparently. After a while and a bunch of mosquitos later, I took off. When I got home, I checked the paper, but didn't see anything missing that came close to his description, so, let go and let God, I guess.

Was told a funny quote today by Sara: "I never met anyone as young as you be as crazy as me." I took it as a compliment. She'd make a fun mother in law and her son is reaaaaaaaaaally hot, but taken. Always that way. Gay or taken, or both. I sometimes wonder why I even try with guys these days, I've certainly got enough issues with them that I doubt much would develop. Maybe I'm selling myself short. Maybe I know it's easier to just not bother than to try and fix my screwed up thoughts about guys and sex. Trying to work on all that, but it's slow coming.
What do you do when what you think will help you is likely to mess you up in another way badly? Part of me wants to express this stuff, but there's a part of me that doesn't want to, for more than one reason. There's also another part that would talk about this to certain people and not others, or more precisely, would talk about it in different ways. And of course, Libido at full throttle. GRR! I'm stuck for the time being.