Voltron quest and whatnots

Work today was alright. Nothing thrilling (especially the 75ish grilled cheese sandwiches I had to make). Nothing catastrophic. I am waiting for something to happen, though. It feels like something should, or rather, I think something should. It's sad, but I don't know how to function in a normal work atmosphere... I'm certainly keen to any slight wrong doing on my part, intentional or not, "corrected" by supervisor or not.

I've noticed today that I'm getting sarcastic and a bit on the mean side, even though I'm joking with people. It's still not nice, and I'm guessing there's a part of me that might take seriously some of what I'm saying. I don't mean to be like that and I know I am certainly being very picky with myself, but well, I didn't get where I am by letting shit slide. I know that I haven't been in the greatest mindset lately, not that it's rare.. but it usually passes faster than it has lately. Too much stuff I want to solve or amend, I think. I'm trying to work on a lot right now and that stinks.

Moving along... Paul's birthday is tomorrow. I was trying to get him a working, steel Volton (deluxe set) for him. He lords stuff over me something fierce, and well, I accidentally broke his when I was like 6.. he has never let me forget it, the jackass. Nevermind that he SHOT my kickball, physically abused me for years, and has always taken more than his fair share of everything... argh! A working, steel Voltron is not easy to find, nor is it cheap. He won't have diddly from me by tomorrow. I'm willing to spend a reasonable amount on one, which is more than I want to spend to be honest.. but I'm generous and don't really care about the money, or money period.. but I doubt he'd appreciate it to any degree other than to say "Well, it's about damn time! Too bad I don't feel like playing with it now!" He has surprised me in the past, so....... who knows.